Our family has grown. From two, to four, and now five.
And when he's here, in truth, it really does feel like home. He's probably here for the majority of the week now. Something that has happened gradually over the past few months. I remember introducing William and Mark to each other for the first time and Mark and I knew that it would be make or break. But he's not left our side since.
And I love him for it.
I really do.
And it's not like he lives five minutes down the road. We actually, at the moment, live 45 miles apart.
It's far. And I don't always appreciate how far it is, because we work together.
He'll drive, or get the train as normal and then we'll leave work together and go back to William who we'll collect as soon as we arrive back in our village.
Slowly my house has started to have male touches around it again. I know for a fact that there's a razor in my bathroom and three toothbrushes, not two. There's a Preston North End coaster on my bedside table and dining table. And I've had to clear out some space in a room that had become very much mine.
And it feels really right for us. William is happy. And we are happy. And it's a great comfort to know that this person, who I put a lot of faith in, has made such a difference to our lives.
And while it may be a small thing, when House of Fraser asked me if I'd like to review something for the man in my life, I thought for a moment and said yes. There was something he definitely needed.
And that was a bag. A Fred Perry Classic Barrel Bag* to be exact. One big enough to throw his things into, but not too big to carry or fit in the boot or on the train. And one that looked nice. And removed the need for plastic bags, or a bag so stuffed that the strap broke.
No one will ever take the place of William's father, who is wholly present in his son's life. But I want to be happy now. I deserve that. And I get to choose someone to help me raise that little boy, in this new way, Mark would be it. When he's here, our family, as new and as disjointed as it may seem, is complete.
And I'm glad to say that there'll be a point, in the future, where that bag will have a different use.
*We were kindly given this to review. And what started out as something nice for him, became an opportunity to say, very nervously, that I'm happy. And that, however you feel about joint-custody and modern families, that I hope you'll be happy for me too.