I have learnt something massive about myself this year. And that is that I can't sit still for very long. It's nothing to do with my attention span, more that I am a workaholic. I can't stand to not be doing something productive these days. I don't know when it happened, because I'm pretty sure, once upon a time, I was a pro at sleeping until noon. Maybe it's motherhood, or maybe it's just the efficient side of me taking over, either way - I do have a really busy life. And it was only something I realised in recent weeks, especially when we lost Gatsby, because that was the first time, in a long time, where I just did not care about getting things done.
When I didn't lie there - a puddle of tears - I slept, cuddled my son, or read a book.
And I remember turning to Mark and saying: "Books are the best form of escapism." And then I realised that, maybe, I've been so secure in the driving seat of my life that I've not really fancied escaping anywhere. And I wanted to change my mindset - I was too busy living a fast-paced life that I wasn't allowing myself much time to daydream anymore.
I used to spend my nose in books, or my evenings curled up under blankets watching SATC or countless rom-coms. Now I barely ever do that.
So recently, I ordered myself some books and I've gotten back into reading. It was on the train at first. To and from work. But now, I'm finding myself sneaking hours here and there.
And it's not just books.
It's telly too. Normally a fidget bum, I'm getting into programmes like a true telly addict. It's grand.
So what's got me hooked?
The Day We Disappeared by Lucy Robinson - the first book I read out of my small pile and it didn't take me long. It followed a clever plot of two women wanting to escape from their lives and involved love, friendship and even horses. I loved it and it was nice to read something romantic but not too sickly sweet.
That Girl From Nowhere by Dorothy Koomson - I'm in the middle of this at the moment and I'm a die-hard Dorothy Koomson fan, so it's safe to say I'm hooked. I really enjoy the culture she brings to her books. She broadens my mind and talks about topics that I've not always had chance to think about. This is about adoption and being a black woman who grew up in a white family. It's gripping. I can't wait to finish it once I've finished writing this!
The State We're In by Adele Parks - I love Adele Parks, having read some of her books before. And I'm really looking forward to this one. I can't tell you if it's decent yet, but the blurb tells me: "What are the odds that the stranger sitting next to you on a plane is destined to change your life?" I'm in.
Gurgle - It may not be a book, but I've been loving this little mag at the moment. It's fresh, not too frilly and talks about motherhood and all of it's tricks and treats. I really like it - I've never read a mama mag before, and I can see this being popular the next time I'm pregnant too. Which might not be too long away!
Watching:Jane the Virgin - How could I not like a show with such a tease of a name? This is similar to the telenovela style shows (think Ugly Betty) and my God it's brilliant! I love it for it's crazy plot and wild characters and I've been addicted to watching this when Mark's in bed or being a bloke somewhere. It's my show and I kind of like it that way!
Lip Sync Battle - Oh. My. Word. Yes, you need to throw any British cynicism out the window, but this is just classic. A range of celebs lip-syncing to their favourite songs? Featuring wigs, crazy dance moves, LL Cool J and John Legend's beaut of a wife - Mark and I absolutely love it. And we don't care who knows it.
The One I Love - This is actually a film but we really loved it. It's got such an amazing plot that you would never expect and we were pretty gripped throughout. It starts off a couple on the rocks, attending counselling, and then, well, it goes pretty crazy.
What are you enjoying at the moment?
I could do with a few recommendations if you wouldn't mind.