I’m back again and I can’t tell you how comforting it is to progress another week in this pregnancy.
How many weeks?
22nd April 2016, if I go from my last period.
How’s baby doing?
Baby is the size of a sesame seed, which is mind-boggling when you consider that I already have symptoms from such a tiny little thing. Baby looks more like a tadpole than anything else right now. And apparently I shouldn’t really know I’m pregnant yet! But I found out at three weeks and two days, which was quite early!
My boobs are the key symptom right now. They serious hurt, to the point where I’ve been wearing a loose sports bra for support when I can, because it’s much more comfy than my normal bras. I just feel so tender and achey and it’s not nice, but, for now, I’ll take that rather than sickness!
I’m still tired, but not as bad as last week. I don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing, but I’ll take it while I can as I know I’ll start feeling worse again soon. Part of the reason for my tiredness is that I’m up and needing a wee three times every night, and that’s not counting the wee before bed and the wee when I wake up! I am going through so much loo roll.
I’m also having vivid dreams and insomnia still. Which is such a pregnancy thing. I honestly feel like my dreams are real and I find myself jolting awake and still fighting dragons or whatever it is I’m doing!
How I feel?
I am really anxious this week. I’m just so frightened that this pregnancy won’t last or that something will go wrong and it’s really taking up a lot of my mind right now. I just want to get to six weeks as I know the risk of miscarriage drops again then. But it feels like time is going every so slowly.
I’m taking cheapie internet pregnancy tests twice a day still, just because I need to keep checking that the lines are getting stronger and everything is okay. I feel stupid for admitting that but hopefully I’m not alone, and it might make you feel like you’re not alone, if you’re reading this and do the same.
For now, that’s all I really feel. Of course I’m excited at the prospect of becoming a mum again, but part of me feels like I’m living in a dream world. I just need some proper proof!