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The 12th June was never a day I expected to be special. I’ve experienced the 12th June 26 times in my life. And only for the last three years has it become a day that rivals Christmas.

My sweet, gorgeous little boy was born at 12:22pm, after 13 days of being overdue, but a short and sweet labour.

I couldn’t control the tears that came when I first held you. I lost control. My hands shook as I tried to stroke your pink skin – so new and so unlike anything I’d ever felt before.

I loved sharing you with the world, but I’ll always remember the night of your birthday, when everyone else had gone and it was just me and you.

I remember taking all of my painkillers, getting out of my hospital bed to shower, drinking plenty of water and trying really hard to be a healthy and fit mother for you.

You slept, but I couldn’t. I kept marvelling at you. I’d waited almost ten months to see that face and all of a sudden I was intoxicated and I couldn’t get enough.

You aren’t that newborn in that tiny plastic cot anymore.

You’re a little boy who can walk and talk and one day I know you’ll walk and talk yourself out of my front door, returning only to visit and tell your old mum about work and maybe a girl that you’ve met. Or maybe the football – if you and Mark can teach me enough about it in the meantime.

I carried you upstairs tonight and I remember the countless nights I have put you to bed. Soothed you to sleep. Rocked you. Sang to you.

And as you ran around your room I just sat and watched you and chatted to you and savoured your last night of being a one year-old. I knew that you wouldn’t wake up a different child (although that’s debatable if the terrible twos are to be believed) but still I wanted to sit and soak up the moment.

And then it occurred to me that I didn’t want to forget the moment.

So Bill.

This is your last night of one. And a message from your mum to you.

Happy birthday. You wonderful little boy. The best surprise I ever had.

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  • Reply
    Carrie L
    12th June 2014 at 8:16 am

    Happy, happy Birthday Bill – you've got a pretty fantastic Mummy there! x

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    Katie @mummydaddyme
    12th June 2014 at 1:58 pm

    Happy birthday to William, I hope he has a great day. x

  • Reply
    Danielle A
    13th June 2014 at 12:18 pm

    Hope he had a lovely birthday x

  • Reply
    Amy Ransom
    14th June 2014 at 1:26 am

    Happy birthday to you both. I remember that feeling of marvelling. About to have no.3 and I know I'll feel that again. Just found your blog via Alison Perry 🙂

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